Are we there yet?

LONGEST MONTH OF MY LIFE and I still have 27 days until my official due date. I feel like so much has been going on, yet nothing at the same time. I am hoping my next post is about the birth of this little guy. 

The worse part about this last month was having to cancel my trip to Vegas. It seemed surreal. I have been looking forward to going to the wedding since the beginning of this year and I didn't even think there was a possibility of me NOT being able to be there. I knew I was cutting it close to my due date but I was going to be home before I was in my last month so I felt comfortable leaving. I asked my doctor before we started trying how he felt about me going when I could be as far as 8 months pregnant. He told me as long as I was healthy and flew it shouldn't be a problem. The month before I left I told my doctor I wanted him to check if I had dilated the week before I leave, just to put me at ease about traveling. When that appointment came he said he will check but he doesn't see a reason for me to go into labor or dilate early because I was healthy. I debated having him even check but told him that was the reason I made this appointment so we might as well.....and while he was checking I said "I feel silly having you do this.." and he interrupted me and said "well let me stop you, you are 3.5 centimeters dilated and 40% effaced (thinned out)" Basically meaning the baby was getting ready to come. Great. Seriously? I couldn't help but start crying, so embarrassing. He ordered me an FfN test which tested for a protein that your body produces when it is preparing for labor, and they also monitored me for 2 hours to see if the baby was under stress and if I was having contractions. When I came home and told Jason, Vegas was out of the question at that point. I tried to find reasons to go, but Jason wasn't hormonal, like me, and was being realistic. The test came back negative, which meant it was unlikely for me to go in labor within the next week IF I rested. My doctor said that because my body is preparing for it my dilating that I could put myself in labor. I had to make a horrible call and tell Cat that I wouldn't be a bridesmaid that Saturday. 

Anyway....I kept dilating and we kept doing all we could to keep baby in there to cook some more, I was not yet term so the baby would have to spend at least a week in NICU and possibly longer if anything was wrong. The doctor said he was also measuring under 5 lbs so we want him to gain a few more. My main worry was his lung development. 

Here we are, 3 weeks later, still no baby! Which I know is a good thing but now I am just wondering WHAT IS GOING ON?!? Every appointment I go to my doctor says to go ahead and schedule my next visit but he doesn't think I will make it until then. Surprise....I do. They pushed my due date back 5 days because I was measuring small, so it is now the 27th. I will be 37 weeks, or term, on Tuesday. When Tuesday comes I will be READY for that baby to get here!! 

How far along: 

36 weeks and a few days

Maternity clothes: 

I guess so....unless it is for an event or church I am usually in yoga pants. He is so low that anything else just makes it hard to breath. It has been getting cold and I can't get myself to buy maternity sweaters because I will probably wear them once if that. So I have been wearing my jackets unzipped or even wearing Jason's old hoodies.

Sleep: 

What's that? I have been waking up in the middle of the night needing to check on random things like if the garage is shut, if anyone is kidnapping Jaden (weird?), if the doors are locked, that our gun is in the same spot. I have even done a load of laundry. 

Best moment of this week: 

My doctor taking me off high risk! He said I can start walking and act as a normal pregnant lady since I went a week without dilating.

Miss anything: 

Being able to roll around with Jaden. Jason luckily does it enough for both of us, but I miss jumping on the bed like a plane or rolling on the floor with him. And my Honda haha. Jason bought me a 4Runner which I LOVE the space and it being higher, which is great to get the kids in, but it was sad to see my Honda go this week. It was the first car we bought together, and the only and first car I had that was actually reliable :) I was excited the heat/air worked let alone that I had automatic windows and heated seats. Don't get me started about the steering wheel controls. I don't think I am hard to please, but that Accord really was a good car. (I get too attached to my vehicles) 

Movement:

Not constant movement but he is still active. I can feel body parts more now, which is a little weird :) 

Food cravings:  

cinnamon gum, I am going through so many packets of it!

Anything making you queasy or sick: 

Nothing specific but I have been feeling nauseous lately like the beginning of pregnancy. If I eat a small snack every 2 hours it isn't as bad but I forget to eat that often until I feel sick and it is too late.  

Gender: 

Boy! I can't wait to decide on a name for him. I just call him "baby" or "brother" for now, but he needs a name :) 

Belly button in or out: 

out

Looking forward to: 

labor! I hate how unpredictable it is yet I am so excited to see how it all happens. I just hope it happens soon....I am sick of waiting. I am excited for Christmas too. We are blessing baby when all of Jason's family is down and I think it will be so great to have all of Jason's brothers here to be a part of it.